My name is Jessica Pagán. I never thought in a million years that I would be a wife and a mother, living away from my home state by the time I was 20. When I was 19 years old, I graduated highschool, moved from West Virginia where I had lived my whole life to North Carolina, got married, got pregnant, gave birth then moved again. Yeah, 19 was a busy year for me.
Let me rewind a bit~ as a kid and teenager, I was painfully shy and awkward (still awkward but I can live with it). So there was a joke between my friends and I that I would be a lonely cat lady. It was mainly a joke, but the fear of its validity lingered in the back of my mind. When I say that I was shy, that is an understatment, I was beyond shy, and wondered if I would ever be able to fully open up enough to actually marry someone. I would never let people really get to know me, just a handful, and I was obnoxiously picky when it came to guys (or so I was told), but I always prefered the term, "high standards". So naturally I did fear that I would never meet someone who was willing to take A LOT of time to get to know me, and also be someone who lived up to my standards. Little did I know that at just 17 years old, I would meet my wonderful husband. Suddenly everything started happening one right after the other. We got engaged when I was 18, moved, got married and pregnant right after I turned 19, then gave birth. So The last three years of my life have left me Pleasantly surprised! I don't think that anyone is ever fully prepared to the difficulties of marriage and parenthood, but for someone of a young age, and who never expected to be a wife and mother, let's just say that my brain is still trying to catch up with all of these recent live changing events. As any mother knows, parenting is difficult when you are unprepared, but it honestly makes it a lot more fun as well!
